weak or strong?

I do not like the feeling of being weak. I like to be physically strong. I like the feeling of accomplishing things on my own. I like to be productive. I enjoy working hard and seeing results. I do not like sitting around, watching other people do things that I believe I should be doing.

That's my problem. If I truly believe God has numbered my days (Psalm 139:16), designed my steps (Proverbs 16:9) and is sovereign over all (Psalm 103:19), then I must believe that this season He has  me in....which consists of physical pain and inability to function with ease, is part of His plan for me...and for my family.

I have heard the verse ringing in my ears and deep in my heart many times over the last week.

But he said to me, "My grace is sufficient for you, for my power is made perfect in weakness."  Therefore, I will boast all the more gladly about my weaknesses, so that Christ's power may rest on me. That is why for Christ's sake, I delight in weaknesses, in insults, in hardships, in persecutions, in difficulties. For when I am weak, then I am strong. 2 Corinthians 12:9-10

There are many things that I have boasted in through out my life. Weakness, has never been high on the list of things that I want to broadcast about myself. But, for the first time, He is allowing me to see the beauty in my weakness.
Because when my flesh is weak, I allow Christ to take over. When I am able to do things in my flesh, I have the allusion of doing them on my own. When I am at the end of my rope, have given up and given in, Christ becomes my all. I have found, the more I seek after Christ, the more challenging my life becomes. The more challenging my life becomes, the more I seek after Christ. And I am able to say, His grace is sufficient.
I haven't exercised in about 3 months. I used to boast in being in shape. God, in His mercy, is making sure I do not boast in a physically fit body...He wants my identity in Him.
I haven't been able to cook, clean, do laundry or care for my kids without help lately. God, in His mercy, is making sure I do not boast in my ability to be a super mom and super wife. He wants my identity in Him.
I have had countless doctors appts, dentist appts, endodontist appts, chiropractor appts, acupuncture appts, naturopath appts.....I have taken pride in my ability to care for my family and keep us healthy....God, in His mercy is showing me my health is not where I boast, but in Him ALONE.
The list can continue.

What Satan may intend to harm, God intends for good. (Romans 8:28).
I want to boast in Christ alone and know that in my difficulties, weaknesses- Then, I am strong.
I don't want to be known for things that I can do in my flesh- like be super fit, super health nut, super mom and wife....I want to be known for Christ. Because, and here is the best part-

My flesh and my heart may fail, but God is the strength of my heart and my portion forever. (Ps.73:26)

What I do in my flesh is temporary. What I do with the strength of Christ is eternal.

So, here I am.
Kristen McCort- Knees are swollen and weak, rib popped out of place last week and still sore. back is achy constantly with a tingling going down my leg. My front tooth has now had two root canals on it and is probably going to have to be pulled soon. My flesh is definitely failing.
I'm a sinful mess. I need to ask forgiveness from my husband and kids frequently. I am in control of nothing....EXCEPT, my obedience to God.  And, of course, I fail at that too. But, that is what the Cross is for!

Join with me in boasting in your weakness and allowing Christ to do more in you than you ever thought imaginable.